Remember how I didn't even shed a tear on Kyle's 1st day of Kindergarten? Well, I found my limit. For the 1st month, I was walking him to his classroom, prompting him as to where to put his lunchbox, backpack, etc. Then a week ago, he decided it was ok to only walk him to the front of the school and wait at the chainlink fence to watch him. *sigh* OK. Then this week, he decides I can just help him get out of the car and stay by the car and he'll go up by himself. *bigger sigh* OK. (course, I still parked right by the chainlink fence 15 feet from his classroom)
Today? Today he decides that I should park back 1 block (where I use to park when I walked him to the class) and he could go all by himself. Even cross the little street, too. *no sigh, just a gulp* So I once again told him what to look for when crossing the street and stood about 10 feet away, watching my little boy be waved across by a nice mom in her suburban. I burst into tears as I watched him walking down the sidewalk w/his Spiderman backpack rolling behind him. While I am truly grateful for his independance and sense of security in all this, a part of my was crushed at the continuing reality that my boy is growing up. Too quickly, I might add. *SIGH*
Course, instead of driving off to go home, I pulled up 15 feet from the classroom and "peeked" at him from 15 feet away. What he doesn't know won't hurt him, right? I see all these other moms dropping their kids off at the drop-off...barely slowing down enough for them to jump out. I know I'll be at that point soon enough. But I have to wonder if all those parents went through this same process of letting their child go.
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5 comments:
That is sad. I can just picture him walking down the sidewalk by himself thinking he is such a big boy. I would be sad too!
*grin* I think, it depends on circumstances of the mom or dad. My son started school at age 3- and as a single mom working 3 jobs- I was so glad, sad yes, but more thinking "no babysitting fee's." But now that he's 8, things get me choked up- like him reading me a bed tiem story, or the fact that his size 10 underwear are getting small, that he wears a size 1.5 shoe... etc, etc :) Bring your camera, and snap a photo of your little guy walking away- or better yet, looking back and waving to you :)
Aw, he's such a big boy! You'll get to have these moments again!
oh man! I don't know if I can handle this growing up thing.
okay that about made me cry!! i don't think i could do it. what is that boy thinking!
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